Sorry that it has been awhile since I have blogged, but it has been a rough summer for me. The heat always does a number on my pain level, unlike many fibromyalgia patients, my pain level actually rises during the heat of the summer. I have painted very little , as it hurts too much to raise my arm to paint. I have messed around with a few things but I have not really been happy with anything I have produced. I'm afraid I am going thru a time of questioning whether it is worth it to try and continue to paint. I admit I am depressed, it's hard not to be, considering the pain I have been experiencing.
My sister invited me to go on a short cruise with her a few weeks ago, her husband wasn't able to get away from work and she wanted a traveling companion. It meant taking a plane to meet her in Florida. I have traveled alone before with little problem, but this time was much different. While on the cruise I had a flare up of both my arthritis and my fibro; and by the time I made the return trip, my ankles and feet had swollen up so from the pain and inflammation that I could not walk. Luckily airports are very accommodating and they took care of me, but it was not a fun trip home. It has taken quite a while to recuperate from my trip. I'm glad I went because I was able to spend time with my sister, and it gave my sister a chance to truly see what I live with. She had never seen me in full flare before and I think it was truly an eye opening experience for her.
This time of year there are several shows that I usually enter, but this year I have decided to take a hiatus. I wish things were different but I have to give myself time to recuperate and be gentle with myself. I do believe the hardest part of living with all of this is the feelings of uselessness, I still have the desire to be productive but sometimes the ability is just not there.
Please pray for me and I promise that all of you are in my prayers as well.
An award winning Pastel artist and blogger, who lives with Fibromyalgia, Psoriathic Arthritis, and Chronic pain.